Where have I been??

It's been a long while. Got exam results today, and I'm so so disappointed with myself over them. It's not good enough, they should have been so much better than they were. Just another failure to add to my life's list. At least I didn't actually fail anything though; I don't know what I'd do with myself if I did. I'm gonna have to get my ass in gear come September. I averaged a 2.2. Like wtf is that! What's worse is it was the lower end of 2.2 and I need to get a 1.1 or at least a 2.1.

Why am I such a failure? At literally everything I do.

It all comes crashing down around me.

Weight wise.......yet again a failure, nothing new there. There's been a lot of drama since college finished, the less said about it the better....but ya, life sucks. The past month has been a series of binges followed by restrictions....with the end result of maintaining weight. Luckily!

I'm done with that though, I'm too far behind to be able to afford food.

Tomorrow's a new start and a new day. Gonna get the ball rolling, got to get the ball rolling. Gonna hit the gym tomorrow, so I will require some food so I'll have the energy to go as hard and as fast as I can. Made the fuck up last week of not eating one of the days I went and I couldn't do as much as I'd planned, which totally sucked.

Lesson learned.