The Fight to be Thin

Didn't end up going to Dave's party last night.  I'm really close to one of the girls he's living with,C, and she got food poisoning yesterday, so she wasn't going out.  And Caroline wasn't going out either (last minute change-of-mind).  It was mostly going to be his class-mates going out, and I don't really know any of them.  It's just a pity that I spend 2 hours getting ready and struggling with the false eye-lashes for much longer than necessary for nothing.  Was just about to call the taxi when C rang and told me she wouldn't be going.  I know she couldn't have helped it, but it's so frustrating...not even about the time wasted in getting ready,  but I broke my fast :(  Now granted it was from 10am Monday until about 2.30pm yesterday....so 100 hours?  When I look at it like that it's so bad, but there's another blogger that was fasting from midnight on Tuesday until midnight on Friday or Sunday (depending on her weight), and I wanted to join her on it, for all of it.  I'm just disappointed in myself ya know?  I'm going to study for the weekend anyway, and eat a bit to help me focus on that, and then fast again from midnight on Sunday.

I was furious with myself last night for the whole eating thing...what I'm going to do from now on is eat just before I start drinking, not a few hours before I start.  At least then if a repeat of last night happens, I won't get caught :)  I watched Sabrina last night instead, and didn't eat either.  Wanted to focus on how stunning Audrey Hepburn is...and omg isn't she just captivating?  How I wish I had even a pinch of her beauty.